Coping With Grief

I dreamed  of Terry last night, but it was so real. You know everyone as had one of those dreams where you wake up and can’t get it out of your mind, it’s as if it was real or really… Continue Reading →

I wasn’t going to go, because most years Megs and Terry always shared their party. They even had their 21st and 60th together. But off I go. I get there walks in the garden and my sister says what do… Continue Reading →

I had a really bad week leading up to Terrys 64th Birthday, tears every day, couldn’t go a work on the Tuesday. Crying to my children really the norm for me these days. But Thursday did come and you know… Continue Reading →

I watched the last series of Game Of Thrones yesterday, I have held off because me and Terry loved that show and always watched  it together. After I finished watching it I just broke down in tears and cried and… Continue Reading →

My Samm called me to tell me that after football, her and Aaron took Alfie to my sisters. My brother was there and they all sat in the garden and somehow the conversation got on to Terry. Samm said everyone… Continue Reading →

Oh my god it’s been six months today, how can a one day stir up so much emotional turmoil. So much as happened to me since Terry has passed, I will never be the same person again. I feel like… Continue Reading →

This was my fifth session and I only have one left to go. I can’t thank Debbie enough for her help and kindness. I know counselling is not for everyone but I have really opened up about my feelings and… Continue Reading →

I went to see this flat with Samm a couple of weeks ago and loved it. Went for second viewing of flat in Noak Hill with Trudy & Mitchell, I put in offer which was excepted. Now just got to… Continue Reading →

Thursday 14.6.19 As I said in my last post how bad this day was, something strange did happen. About an hour after I had cuddled Terrys ashes and asked him to help me, the phone rung. It was the Estate… Continue Reading →

I had not had a good week, but had been to work and be as normal as I could be. I woke up on the Thursday morning and knew I couldn’t go to work, I texted my boss Karen explaining… Continue Reading →