Month July 2019

I watched the last series of Game Of Thrones yesterday, I have held off because me and Terry loved that show and always watched  it together. After I finished watching it I just broke down in tears and cried and… Continue Reading →

I had a really bad week leading up to Terrys 64th Birthday, tears every day, couldn’t go a work on the Tuesday. Crying to my children really the norm for me these days. But Thursday did come and you know… Continue Reading →

I wasn’t going to go, because most years Megs and Terry always shared their party. They even had their 21st and 60th together. But off I go. I get there and walks in the garden and my sister says what… Continue Reading →

I dreamed  of Terry last night, but it was so real. You know everyone as had one of those dreams where you wake up and can’t get it out of your mind, it’s as if it was real or really… Continue Reading →

I know a lot of people will think I am talking a load of rubbish or think I am mad, and a year ago I would have thought the same. But last night I woke up in the middle of… Continue Reading →

First of all I can’t thank Debbie enough for her help and understanding. Debbie talked me through  my grief, helped me understand what it does to me and most importantly to be kind to myself, and if I can’t face… Continue Reading →

When the Doctor told me I had PSTD I thought no way that’s what soldier’s get who have been to war. But it turns out anyone who suffers a trauma or loss can also have it. It’s as only been… Continue Reading →

Just one more day together, so much to say. Just one more cuddle and kiss.

Its 2.18 am in the morning, and no sleep is coming for me tonight or should I say this morning now. All I have is tears and memories at the moment. I just don’t understand what brings it on? I… Continue Reading →