First of all I can’t thank Debbie enough for her help and understanding.

Debbie talked me through  my grief, helped me understand what it does to me and most importantly to be kind to myself, and if I can’t face the world some days that it’s fine to cry, lay in bed, and to do what I feel is best for me. Believe me there have been quite a few days I have done that.

I told Debbie about all my visits/dreams from or of Terry, and she said that that is the connection we have and how strong our bond is.  Debbie said my heart is shaken and broken and in time I will cope better, but will never forget or stop loving Terry.

I first started counselling six months ago and just cried and cried in the early sessions, I least I feel I can make some sense of my. grief now and try to talk myself through it.

So although I won’t be going to Debbie anymore, I do have some tools to help me cope. I have a long long way to go, but the only choice I have is to move on with Terry in my heart, and I know that’s just what he would have wanted me to do.