I have had a sad week, it started on Sunday when Samm, Aaron and Alfie came up. Alfie bless him got on the computer and opened up the video file with a lot of the videos of him with Terry.

Oh My God it was not seeing Terry because I look at photos all the time. It was hearing his voice, when they left I sobbed.

Monday I had a panic attack and this week has been a struggle.

It’s at these times that I know what the doctor means about PTSD. I use d to think I can’t have that but I know in my heart I have.

The strangest things can make me go back in time and certain dates can change my day and mood.

This photo shows Terry just where he was, at the heart of the family.  💔