Most days I am fine, but others “Wow”.

I have no idea what cause’s anxiety and panic attacks to come on me the way they do, but it is awful.

I am sitting in work typing away and bang, I have this over whelming feeling, why did Terry die? why did he leave me? my chest is tight, my belly is going over and I feel like I want to run out of work.

I try to talk my self down, drink some water and stay calm.  I am sure it will pass soon, this is not the first time and properly won’t be the last.

I honestly have never known feeling like these, grief is such a strong emotion, you never know when it will grab you.