Four years ago yesterday I lost Terry, and I thought I was doing really well.

Trudy and myself went to the cemetery to put flowers on our Mum &¬† Bob’s grave, and Carly’s Rose Bush. We made¬† mum’s grave look beautiful and very Christmassy.

As we left we said Merry Christmas Mum and I just burst out crying, but I wasn’t only crying for Terry I was crying for all the family we have lost over the last few years.

Trudy dropped me back to work and after half and hour I just had to leave and go home. I felt so bad, my head was banging I felt sick.

So just goes to show grief never leaves us, and every so often it lets us know it there.